I woke up on a weird side of the bed this morning- an accomplishment, since my bed isn't very big. Not a bad side, just a weird side. I feel weird.
I feel like I'm stuck in this rut--I get up and do the same exact thing, every single day. And I have been doing the same thing, every single day, since the end of August- every single day. I need a BREAK from this!
I actually could really do with a job; I miss my job. I miss working. I know that homework is supposed to be sortof in place of a job, but I miss just getting up and doing things, and seeing the results, and seeing myself benefit from what I was doing, whether that be via my paycheck, or my tips, or a compliment on how I'd gotten better at whatever I was having to do that day. Feeling productive.
As productive as college is supposed to be, at the same time, it's just so monotonous. And it really has a way of grinding you down- every day, you put in everything you've got, and still, you don't feel good enough. I don't feel good enough, I guess. Speak for yourselves. (I know I am...I just...have a hard time remembering sometimes that all of this IS going to matter one day, and that I AM here for a reason.)
In the next week and a half, I'm going to submit at least three papers, will hopefully going to finish a computer class I'm taking, and will take a Chemistry midterm. Those are the focuses right now- oh, how I wish these next few days would hurry up and pass by. And then, I'll be able to just breathe and take a break for Thanksgiving; that's going to be so GOOD!
In the meantime, small sanity breaks shall include: a date tonight with my cardboard friend Jacob (for a Writing 150 assignment- he's literally made of cardboard. You know, one of those life-sized cardboard cutouts), a spa and princess movie night, a much-anticipated night of macaroni and cheese and Fried Green Tomatoes (as in the movie, not the food), and a sleepover writing jam, by which I will make sure that all of these awful papers get turned in.
And then I'll be done :]
It's Thursday, world. Have a happy Thursday--Thursdays are good.
